Struggling During Quarantine


Ever since COVID-19 became a pandemic here in the US, my mental health and stability has taken a bit of a downward spiral. Staying indoors to help not spread the virus is 100% a good thing, however for an extrovert like myself not so much. I understand it is all for safety measures and to make sure we can stop the death toll from increasing. I just think it's insane to have to stay locked up, my own home is starting to feel like a prison but I actually have to like my fellow "inmates".  It's hard to think I've been told not to isolate and now I have to... It's frustrating and difficult. 

Its a real struggle trying to stay positive and not going back into my old way of thinking about life, trying to move forward even though it feels like the world has hit the pause button for now. I have started to really take this blog thing more seriously as I am working through this craziness. Another thing is for those who do read my blog if there are any suggestions you have for me regarding other things to do during our quarantine time please let me know in the comments. It's appreciated! 

Struggling to keep myself in a positive attitude is not as easy as some may say. For me trying to see the positive side of this actually is making me go even more stir crazy because I don't really see any positive side to all of this chaos. Many might say its more time to spend with your family or its time to have you focus on things, for me, it feels like torture than anything else. 

My mental health is very important to me second to my schooling of course but it is hard to keep up. Therapy appointments have become phone calls, doctor appointments have become teleconferences. I've started to think this might be the new normal from now until god knows when. It's a hard thing to swallow and think about on a daily basis, I appreciate that I have this blog to help keep my mind clear and help with processing through this dark and crazy time. 

Stay safe and Stay Healthy! 

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