You're just Overreacting

   "You're just overreacting Cass there is nothing to worry about." I hear this as my body feels like ice and there is a buzzing sound in my head. The buzzing gets louder and louder as my hands started to tingle. I was having a panic attack and no one knew.

The signs of a panic or anxiety attack are not always noticeable. Many people believe they are pretty much the same. However, from my own experience, they are exactly the same. Having a panic or anxiety attack can feel like the entire world is crashing around in one flash of a moment. All sense of reality is broken and twisted. Trying to come out of it is like trying to deactivate a bomb. Everything just comes crashing down. Breathing is nonexistent, the sound in your ear is deafening.

Many people that I know in my life, who don't understand think that when this all happens to a person they are either overreacting and just wanting attention. When I hear this my entire self-esteem crashes, I become dormant and well unapproached. All of these feelings created a path of destruction.

I have been home here in NM for almost 1year in March. Being home has allowed me to be more open about this situation and many more of my illnesses later on in different posts. As I get the help I need to live a more independent life, the word overreacting became a trigger word for so many different things. I have learned that it's just a word and it has no meaning against my recovery.

This road of recovery is hard and long, however, having the strength to overcome and go into recovery is a strength. Writing this blog every week is a start on being able to cope with everything I have been through. From this post on the topics will be very vulnerable and maybe even hard for most to read. I will have a disclaimer before each post.
                                                     
                               That's all for now from me.. See you all next week!