Living and Struggling with Anxiety

                     "Just deal with it!"   "You're fine, it's just a phase"  "You're overreacting"

     These are three of the different things that I would be told regarding having an anxiety attack. It was always hard hearing these things. It brought my self-esteem to a low point and brought me to a very dark moment in my life. Being told these on a slight daily basis brought fear and hatred to my life.

    Living with anxiety can feel like living in a constant action film. Always on guard and always making sure things stayed in control. It became almost like the entire world was closing in on me. The sensation of this would bring only fear and destruction. I struggled with being a normal person.

    The anxiety attacks would first be short and sweet. After years of trama and struggles, the attacks became more of a living monster holding tight to my arm never letting go. I couldn't breathe, it was like water was filling my lungs. I kept the attacks a secret and never told anyone about them. This brought more attention to them. I had them multiple times a day and just kept on living. It didn't stop, day after day after day they grew more and more to where I couldn't control the aftermath of the attacks.  It drove me absolutely insane. I became numb with the idea of having anxiety attacks. I believed they were in my head.

     "You're overreacting"    " You are just crazy"   "Get yourself together, you're are being dramatic"

   These were another three different phrases that I was told on many different occasions. It brought my entire mindset to a complete halt or I allowed myself to not think about the triggering situations. The situations just became more common and I began living "normally"

     Living with my anxiety is one of the most difficult things I have dealt with so far on my road to recovery. I have dealt with so much in my life and kept it mostly a secret. Keeping it secret drove me to more than so much more than just

 One of my tips or advice regarding this is telling someone you're having an anxiety or panic attack. Telling someone doesn't show weakness. Being able to indicate your triggers and tell someone your result thereafter will be less traumatic.
The second tip or advice I am giving is to try grounding yourself. Start with 5 different things with a smell, 4 with taste, 3 touches, 2 see and 1 hear. You can do this in many different ways not what I have just listed.
Lastly, If this is worse than what I am saying it is. Please seek help at behavioral health services or contact someone to talk to. Talking it out can be helpful. 

You're not alone, I am one of many who are struggling with this. If you do need someone to talk to please don't hesitate to contact me on my Instagram by DMing me at eonawhite98. I will be available to talk anytime. 

                                       Thanks for reading, See you all next Thursday!